Rest eteranl grant to him, O Lord: And let light perpetual shine upon him. May his soul, and the souls of all the departed Through the mercy of God, rest in peace. Amen.
Suppose one day you decided to intentionally live a Christian life. Where would you begin? What is the first small turning of mind that begins the adventure of following Jesus?
A first step is to notice the process of your mind, the Buddhists call the unconscious and undisciplined mind, “the monkey mind” meaning that our mind is a tree full of monkeys with chattering, swinging to and fro and competing thoughts. Notice how the mind flits from thought to thought. Know that focus is the goal and also know that this is easy to wish and hard to achieve and when achieved is of short duration. What to do?
The very first thing to do is “decide” to follow Jesus. Immediately, the thought erupts, “You can’t do that!” I say, “Yes you can,” however, avoid vain battles and take the posture of “as if.” Begin to act “as if” you can live the Christian life. Give up the pressure of doing it right and just act as if it were true. Later on if it isn’t working you can climb again into the simian tree. Now that you are acting as if it were true, now what?
The next thing to do is to cultivate inner peace & serenity. How? Let’s explore.
Inner serenity is gained by balance. Balance is gained by moving beyond contradiction to paradox. What you ask? Just listen. We learn to be good boys and girls at our mother’s knee. There is a right and wrong. If we choose the right and avoid the wrong all will be well and of course that is true as far as that goes. Contradiction is only a place on the journey not its end.
“I Want to Walk as a Child of the Light,” a hymn in the 1979 Hymnal sums up this stage, however, if we assume this is all that is required we will lose our way. The opposite of faith is not doubt! The opposite of faith is certainty. Certainty is seductive. We choose the light. Done, we think. All that is required is to set our autopilot and get on with other demands of life. Choosing the light is of course the right choice and if that choice put paid on sin all would be well. This is not the case.
The boundary between light and dark is not between us and someone else, no, unfortunately this boundary is in the core of our being. When we realize this is uncomfortable, so we find someone and focus on them and their failings and thus avoiding our own we find our “certainty” again, lapsing again into comfortable unconsciousness. What is called for is honesty, ruthless honesty.
- We keep before us our brokenness self-centeredness
- We withdraw our projections (more about that in a bit)
- When tempted to project we look instead at our own shadow
- We adopt what Richard Rohr calls “non-dual” thinking. What is this?
Non-dual thinking is the origin of this blogs name: Beyond Contradiction. We must leave behind the either or thinking and embrace paradox. Yes there are two points of view.
In fact one of these points of view is right and the other wrong. One option is chosen and the other avoided. We do all this without losing our objectivity and serenity. In this quandary, I found a passage from the writings of Carl Jung very illuminating. This portion of the last chapter of his work, Memories, Dreams and Reflections speaks to me as deeply as it ever has.
I quote it in its entirety. “In any case, we stand in need of a reorientation, a metanoia. Touching evil brings with the grave peril of succumbing to it. We must, therefore, no longer succumb to anything at all, even the good. A so-called good, to which we succumb, loses it ethical character. Not that there is anything bad in it on that score, but to have succumbed to it may breed trouble. Every form of addiction is bad, no matter whether the narcotic be alcohol, morphine or idealism. We must be aware of thinking of good and evil as absolute opposites. The criterion of ethical action can no longer consist in the simple view that good has the force of a categorical imperative, while the so-called evil can be resolutely shunned. Recognition of the reality of evil necessarily relativizes the good, and the evil likewise, converting both into halves of a paradoxical whole.”
Memories, Dreams, Reflections – Carl Jung pg. 329
He pushed open the door and entered the Tower Room just as the deacon gave us our marching orders, ‘Go in peace to love and serve the Lordt.” He was tall, black and very handsome. Neat is the word that summed him up. From the top of his head adorned with a braided Mohawk to the well maintained shoes, he was impeccable. Where had I seen this look before?